Wednesday, April 25, 2012
im at work now, waiting for the time to past rather slowly i must say - a rare moment that i cherish. while waiting for time to pass, I am vehemently surfing for any information on my current obsession - KING 2 HEARTS. Seunggi have never looked so fine i must say. from his days in 2days 1 night which i am a huge fan of.
now he's in this awesome drama in which he plays a spoil-brat reluctant king turned good. The styling is awesome & his portrayal of his character is awesome. Doesnt hurt thet he's being paired with one of my favourite actress, Ha Ji Won who was last seen awesome in Secret Garden opposite Hyun Bin.
Their chemistry is amazing despite their 9-yr age difference.
I was just thinking how this is the year of the Kings & Princes for K-drama. Before King 2 Hearts, I was going bonkers for 'The Moon Embracing The Sun' & found a new ahjumma obsession with Kim Soo Hyun. Given that the drama hit phenomenal status in Korea, its no surprise that it made our King Hwon a household name with a $15M endorsement deal after he's done acting in the drama.It was my first major foray interest in a Sageuk drama & I have to say its not too bad.
So Seunggi's drama is now coming to the 11th episode. I have been diligently downloading the subbed episodes almost instantaneously once its uploaded online- yes, the obsession is THAT bad.I told the husband that at least i have things to look forward to midweek to make the workdays more bearable - Wed-Thurs eps of the drama, which means its 2 more days til the weekend beckons. Still at the topic of Royal, another drama tt caught my attention is 'The Rooftop Prince' its an 'ok' drama by my standards as the actors dont really do it for me although i finnd Ha Ji Min gorgeous. Its watchable but I cant help comparing Prince Yigak to King Hwon especially when they are in their Sageuk robes.At least this gives me another option to busy myself with while I ran out of pages & websites to throll for my King 2 Hearts :)
Thursday, January 05, 2012
Hello 2012...where has 2011 gone to?
of the many decisions, experiences & misadventures i've had for the past year, i have been at my lowest-low (career-wise), many-a-times i feel like giving-up, countless unnecessary tears flow freely, at the end of it all, im still here standing. with continual support of husband & family. the only reason i know why i make myslef go through this again & again...
so a new husband have emerged,all new 10kg less of the old him. now he's almost a freak. read:push-ups,sit-ups, reading calorie counts/intakes,numerous shopping trips...i think he looks damn good now...see...
Both kids are in the morning session now.which means i have absolutely no excuse to sleep-in :( amirul will be taking his PSLE this year, OMG is he already 12?? felt like just yesterday that i experienced my 1st c-section, cradling him after 30min of ops with tears rolling down my eyes.up til, now, in between there were of course more tears, 1st stpes, 1st camp, 1st over-nighter,1st solo-trip with friends - yes i'm drama mama like that.oh my, how fast this boy have grown...
As for that lil diva girl who's turning 8, she's getting smarter by the day, way smarter than i expected - vainer by the day too. guess where she inherits the trait from. we know that she'll be more than a handful, more than the brother we reckon but she surprised us in her own ways, more often unexpectedly. I wonder & look forward to the lil surprises she has in store for us- all good i hope.
just the other day, i realised that with each passing year that we, the kids have grown our parents have grown too - much more than we last remembered.
im determined to make my appreciation for both parents more inherent this year.we dont know how long we'll have with them - everyday i am so grateful & feel blessed, though i dont show it all the time. they are touching 70 & their energy & abundance of love for us,the kids, have never ever waned-not one bit. I know at times i am too absorbed in my job, my family & just my ownself,so i know what i wanna do this year :)
shall not have mere new resolutions - i have a list of wanting to do for the year, Insyaallah, by end year ill see if i surprise my self again.
Thursday, October 06, 2011
Steve Jobs died today.
He's been suffering from pancreatic cancer since 2004. I somehow see it coming but didnt expect to be affected this much.How apt that he passed away a day after Apple unveils iPhone 4gs. Today I poured over articles of him, his speeches, his quotes, his mantra in life...
RIP Mr Jobs..you've left a great legacy, truly...
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Shall I first do the honours of brushing off the cobwebs & dust? :)
I shall not start ranting about how time flies yada yada yada, as I have absolutely no excuse why I have been missing from this blog of mine.
Yes, its already been almost 2 years since I have worked full time. During this course of 2 years, Amira officially started her 'school-life', which means in no time, I will have that talk about birds & bees & probably will have frustrating conversations about her hanging on the phone for too long. How fast she's grown these diva beauty of mine. She has grown so much it scares me too much. But in the good side, she now makes a good shopping buddy & someone I can seek opinion from about shoes clothes & bags. I remembered how depressed 1 was about returning to work full-time & then another time after that about her starting school in the afternoon session without me having to see her off everyday. I am still not used to that idea though.Of course I still wish time is on our hands. But this girl, she has good shoulders over her head(yes, I'm a proud mama)her independence streak I know is a chip of the old block. While im pretty excited to see her all grown up, I know her daddy will miss her as his lil girl....
My son is now all of 11. He is more independent, his personality shining through, a very responsible chap I am so very proud to call my own.Next year he'll be taking his PSLE. Then the next big leap to being a teen. OMG I am going to be a teen-mom!
The husband & I are getting by, not as much luxury holidays as we'd love to have but we still have our little breaks made more fun with road-trips together with Malik & Shireen. Yes, we have grown quite close over the past years. I think sealed more by the fact that we have seen each other through good & bad times.Hope the good times are here to stay :)
I am still taking day by day working full time, filled full with ups & downs in my stride(well, more downs nowadays for me).I never remembered having to work with head-full of burden, constantly worrying & being emotional affected that it could even drive me to tears. Maybe its way beyond my comfort zone I have known before, maybe it is something i have to go through if only to make me stronger.And throughout the tumultous time, my pillar of strength in the form of my husband have been my constant form of comfort, at times a bit extreme, just so I could make it right. But as the wonderful man he is, he'll be there for me, without fail, in my tears & tantrums to see that I get it through unscathed.
Career horizon have been somewhat challenging lately. I am faced with a cross-road that i dread having to grapple with. I've blown a couple of chances & opportunities mainly due to my inherent 'Ms too-nice' personality.But I always believe that when one door closes another one will open.We have been very much blessed. Even with the husband not working full time, never a day goes by that we went hungry & we still have a good roof over our head & the loving support of family members in the form of siblings,parents,uncles & auntie, Alhamdulillah....
One thing I know, everyday is a surprise, there is always something new, expect or unexpected, good or bad depending on how I choose to take it.But at the end of the day, there's always the lovely faces I get to see-be them sleeping or awake- before I close my eyes everynight. And as my husband say, no matter how tough & ridiculous my day is, just remember that you always come back to the lovely arms of your family leaving everything behind for the night....
Sunday, January 03, 2010
To say how time flies again is such a cliche, I know but - HOW TIME FLIES. its already the 3rd day of the new year 2010. Soooo much has happened in the span of 2 months. Yes. I am still working full-time, yes, somewhere inside me i still sorely miss the SAHM leisure time in the lazy afternoon filled with K-drama & dreamy Hallyus. But the extra moolah helps. & out there doing what I know I can do best is quite worthwhile. Of course there are still ups & downs, dealing with internal & external clients - hey, nothing is THAT smooth sailing I know. But within these months, lucky I should say or foreseen circumstances presented themselves in such a way that I got promoted to that of a Senior PM, which means extra-moolah which also means extra responsibility. This coming January alone, I know there will be challenges ahead with a few concurrent big projects running. But I know always with the support of my other half, it would be ok in the end, as always.
Amirul will be in P4 while Amira will be in K2. They have become more independent sooner than I thought they would be. I still want them to be that clingy little kids who yearns for my company all the time once in a while. But I'm glad that they've grown in such a way. Which means I could work in peace, which means I could work that extra hard to give them that little bit extra perk that all of us would enjoy.
2009 is not so much of a roller caster ride for me. Its lifestyle changing with the demise of my grandfather & my MIL's medical condition. But the dust is settling. Alhamdulillah...
I am still very much obsessed with Twilight - STILL. But the new year at the stroke of midnight, I found myself a new obsession - now I cant wait for 'Clash of the Titans' & i have to say this - 'AVATAR' is the best movie in 2009 ever. we watched it in 3D and awesomeness is still an understatement. Initially when the movie started i was already stumped by the amazing graphics & effects but as the story progresses, i felt deeply for the Na'vi, with Neytiri AND with Jake Sully. I love him more in character as a Na'vi than he was as an ex-Marine. It is such a simple story but it does tug my heartstrings in ways I cannot fathom.
Its been a while too since I committed myself fully to a series of K-Drama & I miss that part of my life. I cant seem to find the time nowadays - I hope a nice time adjustment in this new year could quench my thirst for my K-drama addiction.
So tomorrow I'll retuen back to work after our company's annual week break. Back to routine, back to dealing with clients, just back to life, Of course amidst all that, there are always things to look forward to - like lunch dates with my chummies, dinner dates with my sweet saints & get togethers with the kakis just to chill & lepak. Its quite bliss really - & here's to a great year a ahead - Insyaallah...
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
a new phase, a new beginning...a new phase for me, a new phase for the Bakar Lamin family...My beloved grandfather passed away peacefully on 2nd Syawal this year, 21st September. Even though it was a long-time coming, it was still a shock nevertherless, & he is still sorely missed by us all. It was heartbreaking to see my grandmother, his wife of 72 years mourning for him. The love & life they shared - I would feel so lucky if I get to experience even half of the great love they share.A truly inspiring love story I must say. It started me thinking how I would deal if my other half were to leave first...I shudder at the mere thought of it...
So that makes our Hari Raya celebrations shorter than we already imagine it would be. We knew somehow the celebration will not be as festive as the past years, what with the mother-in-law's condition & all. With my grandpa's passing, it makes the Hari Raya period shorter & more modest than ever, only visiting those important & closest to us. But I am more than glad to do the modest do, saving the us the leg cramps & spare my lithesome tiresome body :)
As of today, its been a little over a month since I started my full-time vocation as a PM. & I am starting to like it day by day- although I still do not enjoy dealing with production team with attitude problem, its is something I look forward to work everyday, looking forward to see the progress of my pet projects.But I am enjoying the company of my fellow colleagues some as young as 21 & 22 - oh gawd, how old I must feel now :0
I guess its good that I am liking my job, which makes it hard to miss the comfortable lifestyle that I have led for the past 5 yrs. At least I do not dread at the mere thought of going to work or keep flipping my watch everyhour to see when the day will end. At least I've gotten the phase of missing my kids terribly & missing the precious time that we spend during the quiet afternoons. It also helps that I get to date my chummums during lunch once in a while to 'cure' the 'missingness'...
I guess its all good for now. Makes me feel that I can still contribute. Moreover my former bosses have told the office people about my 'vast' working experience & somehow, I already got that respect by mere association which makes the working experience more than bearable to get by day by day...
The only thing I sorely miss is my K-Drama & empty malls in quiet afternoons, which the husband assure I can get back to 5 years later :) so definitely something to look forward to...
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
it feels like yonks ago since I wrote anything in this dusty blog of mine - wait, it IS yonks ago!
What a difference 2 mths have made. Now we are almost into the 2nd week of Ramadhan. Things have been going smoothly, Amirul have been diligently performing his full-day fasting ibadah & Mira is still at her trial stage where she fast from morning til noon, get a dose of her milk, then resume her fasting from noon til Maghrib. ALhamdulillah both of them has done well without much complaints.
The first week of Ramadhan was certainly a challenge or -dugaan, as we coined it. The MIL was hospitalised, & dear Viper was involved in a minor 8-car pile-up accident & the other half had an almost nervous breakdown, having been hit with one problem after another. Thankfully all is almost stable now. We decided to take up a drink stall at the DS mosque, a truly impromptu task that we decided. Even if profits will not be made, we assure ourselves that we could always treat it as a our donation contribution.
It's been 2 days since I took that major step in taking up a full-time job back again after a 5-yr hiatus. It was tough, I will not lie, tougher than I expected. My concern was mainly the separation anxiety from my kids that I will encounter having been with them day-in & day out for a good 5 yrs. Especially Amira. My days have been spent with her leaving only a mere few hours for part-time work before. Truthfully it was heartwrenching but it is a decision that we both know will benefit us in the future. Yes, I will miss my semi tai-tai lifestyle with my school chum-mums at the gym & browsing malls in the early morning but I am certainly looking forward to more moolah in the horizon. My main & only worry now is that my working hours would prevent good spending time with the kids. But then there's always the weekends & holidays to look forward to.
Even though the I am in a way going back to my roots, I feel somewhat different & out of place in this new place of work - maybe its still new, maybe its a different job description altogether, maybe, I hope it'll change soon, I hope I get busy soon so I wont waste my time pondering over what could or should have been. Its only been 2 days...
I have to say that even though the line of work is the same the atmosphere is certainly different then how it was 10 yrs ago when I was part of this working family. Maybe its the age, maybe the 10 yrs have changed my outlook of life & career, definitely my focus would differ than what it was before. I recalled looking forward to going to work to meet my fun colleagues back then but now, even though the people are nice & everything, I cant help but keep looking at my watch every hour in anticipation for the time when I can finally leave. Its been just 2 days, it could be different a week from now, I dont know, but I hope I feel differently towards this 'work' thing. My focus would be the same of course but why I do it would present a different story altogether. I guess its just time, and I have to adapt to that - for now at least...